The nine week wall

Ah yes this week has come around again.  It's a hard week cause I've been lacking in sleep now for 9 weeks.  Haven't slept more than 4 hours at a stretch for 9 weeks.  Feeling sick.  Tired.  Very tired.  Worried about baby Maxwell.  He's just not a big eater and of course my milk supply is going down.  Basically drinking fenugreek.  Hehe.  Oy vey.  This happens every time.  Worry.  Stress.  Moments of pure joy when he smiles and coos at me. You know what I think it comes down to, really?  It's the wondering - can I do this again?  Can he really sleep through the night in a few weeks?  Can I lose the baby weight again?  The unknown.  Anyway,  I thought I would acknowledge the good old 9 week wall.  Say hello again or something cause it's not the first rodeo for me.  But hey he is a healthy baby.  Very healthy.  Thank the Lord.  And I say that with all the reverence in the world.